even if i had someone to talk about me and my feelings and my thoughts i dont know if i could describe them. to be honest neither i know what is happening. im kinda of depressed. i wanted someone to hug and love but someone who are besides me not someone who lives far away. i wanted my bf-wife back. 2011 was good. and i believed that could have a happy ending but people slowly were disappointing me and it hurts so much.
so many things i’ve keeping insinde me. sometime i want to tell all those things to someone but after i realized that is better keep them just to me.
i wanted someone to listen all my problems without trying to show that his/her problems is worth than mines. i wish take off all this feeling. regret. pain. betrayed. loneliness. misunderstood. but if i do it i’ll regret. im sad. i feel like she left me like she doesnt care about me while she is my light. i love her so much and she says that miss me but doesnt move her butt to see me. i feel replaced. im feeling like 2010. idk if can handle another year of loneliness. i wrote a text for her and she barely bothered to read it. im feeling suicidal right now. i just wanna a shoulder to cry and be comforted cuz i cant do it by myself anymore.
